...within you now and always is the unborn possibility of a limitless experience of inner stability and outer treasure, and yours is the privilege of giving birth to it. And you will, if you can believe. Eric Butterworth

You create your life through the inner power of your being, whose source is within you and yet beyond the selves that you know. Use those creative abilities with understanding abandon. Honor yourselves and move through the godliness of your being. Jane Roberts

Throw your dreams into space like a kite, and you do not know what it will bring back - a new life, a new friend, a new love, a new country. Anais Nin

Whatever you create in your life you must first create in your imagination. - Tycho Photiou

You are a creator; you create with your every thought. You often create by default, for you are getting what you are giving your attention to wanted or unwanted but you know by how it feels if what you are getting (creating) is what you are wanting or if it is not what you are wanting. (Where is your attention focused?) Abraham Hicks

The thing always happens that you really believe in, and the belief in it makes it happen. - Frank Loyd Wright

Your mind is a powerful magnet that will attract to you the things you identify yourself with. If you have sad thoughts, you will attract tragedies. If you are a good man, you will attract the company of good people. Alfredo Karras

If we believe that there is plenty of love in the world and we are worthy of giving and receiving that love, we will attract a different quality of relationships than someone who believes in scarcity or feels unworthy of happiness. If we believe the world is a loving and friendly place, then most of the time that will be our experience. Arielle Ford

While waiting

Just had an INCREDIBLE first partvof My day.. there was food driving errands and awesome company. . . Even cuddles along the way. While driiving there was a tour of the neighborhood where I grew up....
Um.. yay? Or more importantly reader, you may be thinking so what? Well that's your choice to think.. but where, why and how I'm making this post are what count here.
Where? From My doctors office waiting room. I'm sure I'm fine.. but I was supposed to get blood work done, and did't.. gotta give the doc something to bitch about.  But.  I'm blogging from here.. thanks to My new evo htc android smart phone.. loving it! I feel real good otherwise, I'm pretty sure my weight has dropped more and that My bp is still very good... I have only been eating small meals of mostly good stuff, healthy anyway...

I was trying however to figure out what I've done lately to deserve being called selfish. Is it wrong to realize that something is wrong, and take steps to fix them? To be unhappy, and works towards happiness?

I know, I hurt someone for what she probably has called NO REASON.  I can't say that she would be wrong, fact is she didn't really do anything wrong, things just weren't meant to be, sorry. I don't know if there's such a thing as a forever kind of love, I would like to think there is. I do know however that there is a "for as long as you both shall live" kind of love. I was blessed enough to see it happen twice to a very good Man. That kind of love, the kind that lasts a lifetime .. requires more than the ending relationship had left, maybe thete was no foundation for us to build on.  Or maybe the relationship had ran its course, and we had nothing left to give one another. Either way, on the outside chance that I did not want to dedicate the rest of MY DAYS the same to what would have become, or already was a failed reltionship...

But.  The appt went well.  I lost ten pounds and my blood pressure was 110 over 80
I guess I'm doing alright

not a retraction

or even an apology.. but.. My last blog entry went on about how I got "the good kid" .. I probably should have only said that I got My daughter, the woman who gave Me two children kept My son.. I've been asked to not refer to him, or to contact him... so.. I shall only say that I have heard from people who have known him for years, that he is a good man. and to be honest.. I do miss him.. and wish many times for a chance to know him as an adult...one day I will.. when the time is right. Until then, I WILL continue to try from time to time.

off the top of My mind

I remember a time just as I was turning 21 as a matter of fact... My father told Me he was going to stop drinking, because He chose happiness, over being drunk... and it was after He had done this, that all the blessing of His new life seemed to pay off... for it was some time after that, as he and I would sometimes gone for months, and it wasn't uncommon for it last longer than a year.
I honestly believe that if it hadn't been for My Mom, that My Father and I may have never spoken again.. this brings Me to a fact, that although My actions may say differently, My heart knows, and is grateful for.... the fact that although biologically, I may as well be an orphaned only child... yet somehow through the Grace of God that I still have family... other than of course My daughter... I still have a Mom... I've lost 2 parents in My life... yet I still have a Mom.. and I have 3 awesome sisters, and a brother who I'd love to get to know more.. and THEY all have families, who welcome Me .... yeah.. and I hope ALL OF YOU read this... I may have lost one kid, but I KEPT THE GOOD ONE ... I may have lost two parents... but I STILL HAVE AN INCREDIBLE MOM .. whom I love, and am very grateful for... I may have lost a sister, through time, separation and what not .. BUT I HAVE 3 INCREDIBLE SISTERS, AND PRETTY AWESOME BROTHER .... so.. I guess.. just off the top of My head... I AM ONE LUCKY SON OF A GUN ...