off the top of My mind

I remember a time just as I was turning 21 as a matter of fact... My father told Me he was going to stop drinking, because He chose happiness, over being drunk... and it was after He had done this, that all the blessing of His new life seemed to pay off... for it was some time after that, as he and I would sometimes gone for months, and it wasn't uncommon for it last longer than a year.
I honestly believe that if it hadn't been for My Mom, that My Father and I may have never spoken again.. this brings Me to a fact, that although My actions may say differently, My heart knows, and is grateful for.... the fact that although biologically, I may as well be an orphaned only child... yet somehow through the Grace of God that I still have family... other than of course My daughter... I still have a Mom... I've lost 2 parents in My life... yet I still have a Mom.. and I have 3 awesome sisters, and a brother who I'd love to get to know more.. and THEY all have families, who welcome Me .... yeah.. and I hope ALL OF YOU read this... I may have lost one kid, but I KEPT THE GOOD ONE ... I may have lost two parents... but I STILL HAVE AN INCREDIBLE MOM .. whom I love, and am very grateful for... I may have lost a sister, through time, separation and what not .. BUT I HAVE 3 INCREDIBLE SISTERS, AND PRETTY AWESOME BROTHER .... so.. I guess.. just off the top of My head... I AM ONE LUCKY SON OF A GUN ...