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Broke,  but not broken.
Best wishes to all.

an attempt ...

to merely keep things respectful, or to keep them from getting any more disrespectful
My daughter's Name is Veronica
which was my mother's name.
I'm going to leave this at that
and I'll apologize to Mel for deleting her post.

just in case...

you hadn't yet figured it out ... or just in case you know who this is directed to ..your emails now go automatically into my spam box. .. you are NOT the face that haunts Me... I only check your blog periodically because information that you claim to have and have posted in the past, presents a security threat... not to Me or to my well being, but potentially to innocents... and those are the kinds of threats that I will not take lightly.
say, think, feel, or do whatever you want to about, or to Me... no big deal...it's whatever, ya' know
but, since I have your attention.. let me just say, once and unequivocally.. GET OVER IT .. your friends, I'm sure will agree with Me.
it's no longer My fault that you have failed to improve your lot in life. I'll take at least partial, if not full responsibility for you being in a hole when we went our separate ways. .. but MONTHS have passed... I'd fallen into a whole, especially after paying you for the appliances that we had purchased together... but whatever, I won't harbor a grudge. I was upset about the TV, but I bought a new one... I was behind on the payment for the Stratus, but now I own a Charger... ya' know, I tried for years to explain that you can either wallow in the negativity, let that bile wash all over you, until it drowns you.. or you can take some Gawd Damned Responsibility for where you are in life... grab your own ass with both hands, and get the fuck over the mountain in front of you... it comes down to making a choice... I preached this for years, to no avail ... you have to make a disciplined decision... to focus on, and look for the good in life.. but even now, you choose not to. you don't realize that you still for the most part, have your health, you have a job, and a mode of transportation... be thankful, live life, and move forward.. or wither and die... there's only one choice to make here.. live forward, not backward.

and just for the record, no, the choices I made were not done to cause you pain, or to make you suffer.. I made a choice that I could no longer live that life.. it was going nowhere, I was unhappy, and no, it wasn't boredom.... it was pain, and I felt myself dying a little more each day... I'm only 43 years old.. I need to have more things left to live for.. I need to have hopes and dreams... and well over our nine years, a lot of those died, as did a big part of Me. I"m not blaming you. I'm not even expecting you to understand, and to be honest, if I don't get a response, that'll be just fine.

this is something I told myself that I was going to refrain from, but here it is anyway... maybe you'll see it, maybe you won't.. either way it won't change anything about how you feel, nothing I ever said did. but back to my original point... your emails go to my spam box ,you are not haunting Me in any way.. and I only check the blog for the sake of safety